Tuesday, December 22, 2009


I want a buzz right now.

I want to sip from a straw and feel light headed and start laughing.

I want to care less about the dust bunnies on my floor.

I want to taste the sting of vodka.

I want a buzz right now.

But I am not going to drink. Because while I want the fun part of the drinking I don't want the other stuff.

The regret.

The sickness.

The realization that I am weaker than the vodka.

I am stronger than the vodka. With the Lord I can do this. I can get thru this moment and not drink and the urge will pass.

Its happened before.


Mary Christine said...

I hope you are OK.

mommaof3 said...

I didn't drink. It was a rough afternoon, but I figured out what triggered it...

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