I just finished watching the Lois Wilson story that was a Hallmark movie this week.
I am crying.
I was sobbing. The big ugly cry that distorts my face.
This is an amazing story. Lois Wilson stood by Bill through so much. I feel like I would have given up long before it got to that point, though we never know how we will react in any given situation. There were parts of the story that I completely identified with. Parts of Bill's desire to drink that rang true in my life. There were many situations that I am grateful my drinking never got me in. I never lost my job or ended up in the hospital.
But I could have. And many more years of drinking the way I was drinking would have gotten me there at some point.
I am grateful that Bill Wilson finally hit bottom and that his wife was by his side when he did. That she continued to support him when everything around her told her to leave. That she listened to her Higher Power and asked those women to come inside while their husbands met.
Just when I think being sober can't get any better or that maybe I'm done 'getting well' I realize how very far I have yet to go. And I thank God for AA and Celebrate Recovery.