Thursday, January 5, 2012

Where have I been?

It has been quite some time since I have posted. Our computer has been broken for months so I generally use my phone to look at facebook, etc and when I am on a full size computer it is just for a few minutes. So what have I been up to?

I spent the fall in lots of prayer. 2 people I went to high school with died from cancer. It was a sad sad time, but also a time of thanksgiving, as they traded their sick earthly bodies for heavenly wings. I spent some time fantasizing about what would happen if either my husband or I got cancer, but not too much time....

I also started a new job. I have spent the last 6+ years working in a church environment. An environment that both hurt me as I had to hide my drinking for the last 3 years I drank and then embraced me with untold support as I got sober. It was a place full of folks I loved, however in the spring it became clear that it was time to move on. I was not enjoying my job at all and I stepped out in faith that the Lord had somewhere else for me to serve.

Indeed, He elementary school! It is a fabulous job yet it has tested me every step of the way. I am doing something I have never done before. I am the assistant, whereas I've always been the lead. I am working in a secular setting as opposed to a church or synagogue, where I've always worked before.
I have cried as work. I have laughed. I have been hugged, hit, told 'I love you', pinched, and done push ups with two particular third graders. It has been humbling, to say the least.

And thru it all I have remained sober. I have! There are just enough coworkers who know me, really know me, that I am held accountable. And by the end of the semester there were even more folks who knew about my struggles and my choices. Not details, mind you, but enough to know not to get me a bottle of wine for a Secret Santa gift!

So, I've been here, busy living life, raising my babes, loving my mister and making the choice not to drink.

Happy New Year!
~there IS hope!

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

I have missed your blogs and I am glad you are back! xoxo