Weddings

Tonight I am going to my sponsor's daughter's wedding. I spent part of the day Thursday decorating the dance hall, it is going to be gorgeous. There will be a band and my husband and I are going to get to dance. I haven't been dancing in longer than I can remember.

I {love} to two step with my husband. I used to really enjoy dancing to fast music, too. After a few drinks. This goes back to the how do I do this sober? Why do I do this sober?

Weddings were always a lot of fun for me. I got to dress up. And generally there was free alcohol. What could be better?

So the first wedding I went to last year while sober was a little awkward. Even when I wasn't supposed to be drinking in public [because of my job] I always managed to drink in the car before hand or sneak [so I thought] glasses of wine.

Last December I went to a wedding sober. I went to the reception sober. Then, horror of horrors, I danced sober. Honestly, I didn't like it. I felt very self conscious and awkward. I wish I could say it got better, that I felt more comfortable, but I really didn't. I enjoyed the slow songs, dancing with my husband. And while there was a group of my friends dancing to the fast music, all sober, I tried and failed to have a good time.

The next sober wedding was better. The only problem this time was the copious amount of diet coke I drank. I was up all night!

But compared to the nights after receptions that I came to around 3 or 4, totally unaware of my surroundings or unsure of how my dress came off, I'd take caffeine insomnia any time.

So tonight will be another sober wedding. There will be no alcohol served at all. We'll all be dancing sans social lubricant. I'll let you know how it goes.

What are you doing tonight?
Happy Saturday~

10th Anniversary-

I married my husband ten years ago today. I am so grateful for him! This has always been our song!


It was no accident me finding you
Someone had a hand in it
Long before we ever knew
Now I just can't believe you're in my life
Heaven's smilin' down on me
As I look at you tonight

I tip my hat to the keeper of the stars
He sure knew what he was doin'
When he joined these two hearts
I hold everything
When I hold you in my arms
I've got all I'll ever need
Thanks to the keeper of the stars

Soft moonlight on your face oh how you shine
It takes my breath away
Just to look into your eyes
I know I don't deserve a treasure like you
There really are no words
To show my gratitude

So I tip my hat to the keeper of the stars
He sure knew what he was doin'
When he joined these two hearts
I hold everything
When I hold you in my arms
I've got all I'll ever need
Thanks to the keeper of the stars

It was no accident me finding you
Someone had a hand in it
Long before we ever knew

On my own----

I like people.

I am an extrovert.

I heard once that some people gain energy while around other people and some feel their energy sucked away. I definitely fall into the first category.

I like to text. To email. Be on FB. On the phone. Talk for 30 minutes in the parking lot after meetings are over.

I seriously love being around people.

I have said a couple of times lately that it is too crazy to be alone with my thoughts, I have to share them, that is why I talk so much.

Today I had a thought. I think I need to be alone more. Intentionally not listening to music, not reading a book, not reading status updates.

Alone.

With my thoughts.

Listening to God.

That scares me.

I tried it tonight on my run. And it wasn't too dreadful. I don't know yet what I heard, but I still think I am being called to hang out by myself a little more in 2010. Ask for other's opinions less. Share my mundane thoughts less. Ramble in my blog less.

What do you need to do?
Happy Tuesday~