Tonight I went to a surprise lingerie shower for my sponsor's daughter. I nearly had an anxiety attack in the pajama dept at Target. I settled on some tiny boxer shorts with a long sleeve t.
I started thinking about previous lingerie showers. Bachelorette parties. Party buses. Dancers who like $1 bills. Shots. Penis balloons.
Totally started freaking out. How does one do this sober? Why does one do this sober?
I arrived with two friends and the bride to be was only mildly surprised. She seemed genuinely glad we were there. The hostess had us play a little game where we made the bride a wedding dress out of tissue paper and scotch tape. We all laughed a lot and it was fun.
Then we ate some snacks, drank decaf coffee and laughed at the dog's silly hair cut while hanging out in the kitchen.
We moved into the living room to open the gifts. There were a few racy ones, {mine was very tame} and the last gift she opened was cheetah thong underwear from her aunt. More laughter and fun.
The married women made veiled innuendos and it was really laid back and easy to be there.
The thing that sticks out the most was the laughter.
Another sober event done! Another successful fun time sans alcohol, when previously I couldn't of imagined such a time. Oh, the Lord is good!
What did you do while sober today?
Happy Monday~
Monday, January 4, 2010
Sunday, January 3, 2010
Sobriety Sunday
Emily asked what I was doing today to stay sober.
Today I am home with my family. My husband is watching football, my older two kiddos are cleaning {so they say} my son's room and my baby is sleeping. I need to unload the dishwasher and fold some laundry. I hope to talk to a friend on the phone in a bit. I am running at 430.
Basically I am going to be doing regular stuff today. There don't appear to be any triggers on the horizon and for that I am grateful. Right now, it doesn't seem like it is going to be hard to stay sober today.
But I must remember it only takes one drink. Without one drink there can't be 5 drinks.
So today I am going to remember that I am indeed an alcoholic and though I am sober, I am not healed. I still have the disease.
And I won't drink today.
What are you doing to stay sober?
Happy Sunday~
Today I am home with my family. My husband is watching football, my older two kiddos are cleaning {so they say} my son's room and my baby is sleeping. I need to unload the dishwasher and fold some laundry. I hope to talk to a friend on the phone in a bit. I am running at 430.
Basically I am going to be doing regular stuff today. There don't appear to be any triggers on the horizon and for that I am grateful. Right now, it doesn't seem like it is going to be hard to stay sober today.
But I must remember it only takes one drink. Without one drink there can't be 5 drinks.
So today I am going to remember that I am indeed an alcoholic and though I am sober, I am not healed. I still have the disease.
And I won't drink today.
What are you doing to stay sober?
Happy Sunday~
Saturday, January 2, 2010
HapPy NEw YeAr~
Today was a really low key day. We took down the Christmas decorations, I browned a bunch of hamburger meat for when school starts back and the kids went down early.
I haven't really taken any quiet moments to look toward 2010. To think about what I want this year to look like. At this point in 2009 I simply wanted to survive. I wanted to live one day at a time, not drinking.
And I succeeded!
Now I want more. I don't want to simply get by. I want to do more than is required. I want to finish things before the last minute. I want to make an impact.
I realize that I am impacting three sweet lives, whether for the good or not, each day. The Lord has blessed me with a 1st grader, a kindergartner and a 2.5 year old. Whew! I want to be intentional in my relationships with them. I want to create a home that is their safe place to rest, a comfort for all times.
I want to be sober to do all these things. I will be sober to do all these things.
I have a sponsor. I have meetings. I have steps to work.
As I was running yesterday I thought about the fact that a year into this sobriety thing and I am only on step 4. I am feeling ok. I am pretty strong most of the time. Maybe I don't need to finish the steps. Maybe I can do without the amends or the inventory or the journaling.
Maybe not.
After next week my sponsor and I are getting back on track. Her daughter is about to get married and we took a break over the last few weeks. I know she'll ask the tough questions. And I want to find the answers.
Even when its hard. When when it hurts.
Because I want more.
What do you want in 2010?
Happy Saturday~
I haven't really taken any quiet moments to look toward 2010. To think about what I want this year to look like. At this point in 2009 I simply wanted to survive. I wanted to live one day at a time, not drinking.
And I succeeded!
Now I want more. I don't want to simply get by. I want to do more than is required. I want to finish things before the last minute. I want to make an impact.
I realize that I am impacting three sweet lives, whether for the good or not, each day. The Lord has blessed me with a 1st grader, a kindergartner and a 2.5 year old. Whew! I want to be intentional in my relationships with them. I want to create a home that is their safe place to rest, a comfort for all times.
I want to be sober to do all these things. I will be sober to do all these things.
I have a sponsor. I have meetings. I have steps to work.
As I was running yesterday I thought about the fact that a year into this sobriety thing and I am only on step 4. I am feeling ok. I am pretty strong most of the time. Maybe I don't need to finish the steps. Maybe I can do without the amends or the inventory or the journaling.
Maybe not.
So, if you think you are standing firm, be careful that you don't fall! No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it. 1 Corinthians 10:12-13
After next week my sponsor and I are getting back on track. Her daughter is about to get married and we took a break over the last few weeks. I know she'll ask the tough questions. And I want to find the answers.
Even when its hard. When when it hurts.
Because I want more.
What do you want in 2010?
Happy Saturday~
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